Monies

So I'm all freaked out because our Line of Credit (LOC)  is at 37K

We redid the whole basement a couple of years ago and it cost like 1/4 Million or something, and I had a plan to have it all paid off by 2017, and I was so glad because we got it all paid of fby May of 2015, and then the LOC went back up because we built a new roof and a new deck, and now I'm all sad because with two kids in DayCare we're not going to be able to pay it off by 2017 after all, and and and and..

... a voice said "Dude, you did pay it off by 2017. Now you're paying off something else."

And I felt better.

Hospitality

Holy Hannah, I just realized that between our Friday night Wee Ones & Whisky event, and our Sunday night dinner, we hosted like 12 people at our house.

I LIKE entertaining, and I want to do more of it.  But then I realized we do do more of it.  More than almost anyone else I know.  But I love it.  So let's do more.

Insomnia

I've come to welcome that one to two-hour period where I lie in to dark unable to sleep as just another nighttime pest, like the cat sitting on me, or a party at the neighbour's. I'm not getting any more sleep, but I mind less.

EDIT: Also, turning off the damn phone before I lie down, and passing an hour reading has made a HUGE difference.  Goddamn phone

Deep breathing

I had a good moment last night; Peanut #1 woke up Peanut #2, and I had to put #2 down as #1 was all the Project Manager's problem at that point.

There was nothing she needed, nor anything I could do, So I just chilled out with her on my shoulder while she SCREAMED at me.  And you know, I kept my cool.

The trick was to consciously and repeatedly unclench my jaw.

And I wondered if it would be a useful technique for when work is making me crazy. So I will try that and let you know how it all turns out.

Peanut #2

Also, we have started doing much more normal bedtimes for Peanut #2, and it's working really well. 

She likes it, we like it, Peanut #1 likes it; it's really a win for everyone. 

This makes us hopeful that soon they can share one room as sisters. And I mean "soon" in the sense of "in a fee months". Peanut #1 was 16 months when she changed into a bed. 

Wedding

Saw a great wedding this weekend; the yogi(?) talked a lot about not sweating the small stuff. I sweat the small stuff. 

I need to fix that. That's probably job #1 in my life, I think. 

Bad judge of character

I just realized, watching a "friend" be an ass on Facebook, that I have a higher level of sympathy and tolerance for my guy-friends who are single and Dads than I do for other groups.  "Oh," I say, "I don't want to call him on his behaviour because he loves his kids".

Or, as I have now chosen to put it, I give the benefit of the doubt to people who can't reasonably employ birth control.  That seems dumb.