Xmas all done

Ok, I mean, there's actually a couple of days left, but we're all back into our routines now, so there's that.

I got amazing presents for Xmas, and it wa sa great time.

I got a 3d printer, so that's going to be amazing fun when we get our basement back and it's transformed into the wonder shop... ooh good name for it!

I have so many ideas about what to print, and it's going to be so much fun!

We're on a-- ok, I'm on a showbiz break until summer, and we just need to get through the next transition to school days as per normal!

Literally, January could be an entirely routine month.  That would not suck.

Huh.

Exercising...

It's coming along nicely for the record! I've managed to lose about 1/2 a kg a day, which is pretty nice, but man... I'm starting to worry about never being able to eat a donut again.

BUT I WILL!

:)

Also, restaurant portions are really really huge like actually for real.

But it's neat! I wonder if I'd be better if I'd started doing this 20 years ago, but I was too busy being skinny and grumpy. I don't think those were wasted years, but well spent.

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Not really much worth talking about today, in here, just normal life for me.

It's interesting to note that our house reno is coming along very well, but it is highly disruptive to my routine, and as that has continued, I have been less and less motivated to do stuff.

But, it's also very dark, and that's not great for motivation either. Ah well, in any case I'm making progress on things!

I think?

Was gonna say something...

OH RIGHT, I remember what it was.

Why do I stand in hallways when it's time for a party?

I stand in my hallway, I stand in my friends hallways... WHY?

Is it fear of open spaces?  Maybe?

Maybe it's discomfort with people being behind me? Which is hard in a big room and easy in a hallway?

Maybe it's that our furniture is in the way?  We actually have no place in our house to sit one on one and talk.

I remember seeing the greatest chair ever, where you sat side by side but facing different directions, so you could talk and it was a very nice chair.. I should try and find one, or make one...

Two chairs and a compatible end table in between them.

Then maybe I wouldn't have to stand in the hallway

An odd ripple effect of self-care.

So one of the behaviours I am attempting to extinct in myself is losing my temper. I mean, sometimes you gotta yell at your kids, right, sure, but I always want to make sure that  I am in control of when I do that, and sometimes I'm not. So I'm off to fix that.

But.. as I work to decrease the number of times I have a dad-tantrum, I find that I am, generally, grumpier. My peaks of anger have decreased, but my baseline is higher.  I mean, it could also be that I'm _exhausted_, which is a reasonable other variable that explain this.  But work shall continue.

Self care improving

BUSY-NESS ALSO INCREASING...

But I'm looking forward to a period of relative calm over the next few weeks.... ok, next few days... hours....

A minor thing I learned from my work

1) When supervising problematic staff, it's really hard to remember and recognize that they are improving, and to re-assess them fairly as they progress from sucking, to not sucking as much, to sucking very little, to sucking not at all.